Hello my beautiful family and friends. It has been a while since we’ve last spoken. Let me begin a little by letting you know what has happened in the last few weeks. I was God smacked by an email sent to me by my boss. It said in part that my job would be reduced to part time the beginning of next year (2019) and there was no place for me there , sorry. Yep “just like that… “no place for me”. Of course after giving 15 years of my heart, soul and mind to this company, I became emotionally overwhelmed. I questioned why me and not the other people I had trained and backed up. I questioned this decision even though in my spirit I knew this was about to happen. God or the universe (whatever you believe in) showed me all the signs of what this man would do . This set up by the company was over 2 years in the making in order to get me out, but I was determined not to listen to my spirit. I kept telling myself oh no, I have put in too much time to be completely dismissed in such a crazy way. Isn’t that like us….Questioning what God is trying to warn us about…Questioning why this could not happen….Questioning how the spirit is guiding us,,, yet we do the exact opposite. Yes, that has been me over the last few years. Anyway, I actually made myself sick from the news that I may not have a job soon. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I stayed in the same clothes for days. Even wore the same clothes to work each day and I bet no one noticed or they were afraid to say something.. Yeah I was down in the dumps. Even though I was down, I kept saying these three words….CATCH ME JESUS…. I lay on the couch and just repeated it over and over again. CATCH ME JESUS. Those were the only words I could speak. Sometimes when you are drowning, Jesus is all you can say. Many of you know exactly what I am talking about.
Fast forward to this morning, and I am realizing that I have Battle Fatigue. I’m tired y’all… Trying to fight a dozen battles that really mean nothing to my destiny…. Tying to fight battles that are causing harm to my physical and mental health…. Trying to help others fight battles that may cause them harm in the end…..Fighting battles that were never meant to be won…. Battle Fatigue… You know what all battles are not meant to be won….Some battles are just meant to build up our character and strength. So you know what I am trying to take my hands off and trying to allow God to take control of the situation. He knows the people who are coming against us with harm and deceitful intentions…He knows what we are up against daily at work….and trust me He and He alone will guide us through this season. Saying these words out loud makes it better. Also, eating my weight in chips, while waiting for God to guide me through this makes me feel better as well. Just keeping it real y’all…. No judgment…
I will leave you with this verse…
Isaiah 57:17
No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is from me, saith the LORD.
To be continued….CATCH ME JESUS….
Love you all..
Valerie Lynn XOXOXOXO
Fast forward to this morning, and I am realizing that I have Battle Fatigue. I’m tired y’all… Trying to fight a dozen battles that really mean nothing to my destiny…. Tying to fight battles that are causing harm to my physical and mental health…. Trying to help others fight battles that may cause them harm in the end…..Fighting battles that were never meant to be won…. Battle Fatigue… You know what all battles are not meant to be won….Some battles are just meant to build up our character and strength. So you know what I am trying to take my hands off and trying to allow God to take control of the situation. He knows the people who are coming against us with harm and deceitful intentions…He knows what we are up against daily at work….and trust me He and He alone will guide us through this season. Saying these words out loud makes it better. Also, eating my weight in chips, while waiting for God to guide me through this makes me feel better as well. Just keeping it real y’all…. No judgment…
I will leave you with this verse…
Isaiah 57:17
No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is from me, saith the LORD.
To be continued….CATCH ME JESUS….
Love you all..
Valerie Lynn XOXOXOXO
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