And life goes on...

That very moment I realized I was childless, was the day I felt my life was over.  I consciously made the decision to stop living.  Who does that, well I did...I remember looking at my Bible, which I keep close to my bed and turning away from GOD. How could He let this happen to me..How could He let this happen to His child.  So in my mind if He turned away from me, I would turn away from Him. So for a brief moment I turned away and decided to stop living... In this haze of loss and confusion I turned to food, and anything self destructive that would take me away from this Planet. Little did I know the moment I so called turned away from GOD...He was working on me...Working on restoring my life...Working on restoring to me a better and more abundant life...The problem was that I was so deep into my depressed state, I could barely breathe. ...It would take time for me to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel...